Have you ever discovered a song that perfectly fits as the theme song of your life at the moment? We sang a particular song during worship at church today and when I searched for it on Spotify, I thought it was the tune above. It turned out to be a different one, yet I’ve had this on repeat all afternoon.
This past week- WHEWWWWW. Honestly, looking back on it now, I know it could have been much worse, but I haven’t experienced spiritual warfare like that since 2011. There was an obstacle literally every single day and it got to a point that I would wake up feeling immediately discouraged. The words “I can’t” filled my head a hundred times. I was paralyzed in fear, doubt, hopelessness, and frustration, you know, all things NOT of the Spirit. But I think the worst, unexpected part were the naysayers and discouragement from some people at church. I am so used to cheery encouragement from the church body, so dealing with this was out of my comfort zone and I didn’t know how to handle it. Yet I remembered that the church body is NOT perfect and we need to suit up and put on the Armor of God, even INSIDE His house.
I believe God breaks us down to build us up. He strategically uses these circumstances for a spiritual slapping for our own good. He wants us to depend on Him again instead of us trying to control everything on our own efforts.
On Friday night, I attended a women’s fellowship and the pastor spoke on lessening the limits in our lives by 1) asking for help, 2), raising our level of expectancy, and 3), daring to do what God tells us to do. “God loves when we face impossible situations because He’s about to do something big.” Lessening the limits of our lives means letting go of hurt, bitterness, shame, and embarrassment…and that includes from those within the church.
Since that night, I’ve clung on to God with all I had left and I was blessed to have godly mentors to guide and help me along the way which is so important in the Christian walk. I’ve come to realize that this is just the beginning- and that’s okay. It’s inevitable. Cutting ties with negative associations may be necessary, you can’t make everyone happy, and holding on to your identity in Christ is key because as long as you know that what you’re doing is what God wants you to do, who CARES what anyone else thinks or says? If God is for us, who can be against us? (Romans 8:31).
If you are facing adversity, as hard as it may be, consider it pure joy (James 1:2). The limitations you set on yourself will limit your vision and what God is capable of. The devil LOVES trapping you in a dark corner of uncertainty and hopelessness and the longer you stay there, the harder it is to get out. But by God’s grace, He sees our desperation as an opportunity to walk into the Light where our hope, faith, and strength is RENEWED.
Take a few minutes and listen to this song of declaration and that despite our brokenness and trials, we are ALIVE in Him because He is the GREAT I AM.
“From beginning to the end
All my life is in Your hands
This whole world may hold me down
But it can never drown You out
I’m not merely flesh and bone
I was made for something more.”
– Jesus Culture, “Alive in You”