Life has literally become the movie, “Confessions of a Shopaholic.” Just call me Rebecca Bloomwood. No, I don’t have a debt collector after me nor do I even consider myself a shopaholic. But I have joined the financial industry. I’ve become an agent with a financial marketing firm.
After #JirehForFour I came back to Michigan thinking, “This is what I want to do for the rest of my life. I want to be a missionary.” I was content on raising support, sending newsletters, and speaking at churches. The typical missionary road. I envisioned this journey to perfectly compliment the calling God’s given me- to bridge faith and fashion together. I thought I was going to travel to this country, network with these people, then create some type of fashion meets God organization. I even had the opportunity to join two different ministries. Needless to say I was excited. It was everything that I could ever want! But in every worship night, Bible study, morning quiet time, and even during an interview with one of the ministries God whispered in my ear, “No.”
Meanwhile, a family friend came to Michigan from California and presented an opportunity to me and my family. This was actually the third time I’ve heard this presentation, the first back in 2012 and I remember it well. Three years ago I was 21 years-old; it sparked my attention but in the end I had no interest in joining the financial industry. I mean, helloooo! I was fresh from fashion school completely right-brained! However, this time around was different and I felt a tug on my heart.
I prayed and prayed and prayed. And prayed. This was such a challenge. My flesh yearned for the things I wanted that were right at my fingertips. My auntie, who has been a Cru missionary for over 20 years, mentioned these four things on making a decision: 1, does it align with God’s Word? 2, look at the circumstances. Is it reoccurring? 3, what are your Godly mentors saying? and 4, do you have peace about the situation? At the center of it all, all four aligned including #4 deep down underneath my walls and pride. God was bringing me to it and I knew He’d help me through it. After a leap of faith I said yes and flew out to California.
“How could you say ‘no’ to those ministries?”
“What will others think of you?”
“You’re the fashion girl! Are you even qualified?
These were just a few questions that constantly flew in and out of my head. I struggled. Doubt, worry, fear, and other things that are not of God attacked my mind. But God’s will comes first before feelings and emotions. He has the perfect plan and even though we can’t see past the present, I BELIEVE and TRUST that He works for the good of all those who love Him.
For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts. – Isaiah 55:8,9
I arrived in California not knowing what to expect- really. I went to the corporate office for their weekly Business Presentation Meeting clearly clueless of the dress code because as I entered the room wearing green pants with purple and pink paisley print, a hot pink cardigan, and huge earrings an hour late, there were about 20 people in a gradient of dark suits. Talk about a Rebecca Bloomwood moment! God can be a funny One, can’t He?
Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into a month, and ultimately a month stay turned into two. Throughout these two months, God has been streeeeeetching my faith. He has and still continues to break me, shake me, and mold me. I’ve learned so much and encountered Him in a totally different way. I thought support raising for #JirehForFour was challenging but this is completely different territory. Yet God keeps saying, “I didn’t bring you this far just to bring you this far.”
I completed the team’s website, made the best of relationships with other agents at the office, received training from top leaders of the faith-based/self-improvement company, emceed for a couple of events, reviewed and passed my license exam, attended Water of Life Community Church and Crossroads’ young adults fellowship, Generate, and thoroughly enjoyed the warm west coast weather. It’s been a crazy and incredible ride.
When people ask, “So, are you still doing fashion?” I immediately answer yes. If anything I believe that God is using this season to prepare me for that calling He made clear three years ago, someway somehow. I’ll be blogging again at least once a week which, can I just say, not blogging has made me super emotional! I think it’s because I’ve been holding all of this in for so long and blogging has become a form of venting for me (so sorry that this post is quite lengthy!)
For those who are facing situations where doubt and fear fills your mind- you are not alone. I don’t know what situation you are facing, but hold on to the promises that God has for you. He may place you in a situation completely unexpected and out of your comfort zone, but I’ve learned that it’s in those seasons that He is preparing you for big and great things ahead. God tends to put us in these trials so that we can humble ourselves before Him, surrendering every fear and anxious thought. It may not happen overnight, but thankfully we serve a PATIENT God. He is not trying to punish us. Instead, He uses challenges so that we can draw closer to Him and discover His goodness in a new light. He is a Father who stretches His arms out wanting us to run to Him with every troubling thought. No matter how many scars we have or tears we’ve shed, He accepts us. Thank you, LORD!
I’m excited to keep you updated on this continuous adventure and thanks for making it down this far. Please keep me in your prayers for guidance and confidence. By the way, please drop in a prayer request above, too. I would absolutely love to pray for you 🙂 God bless!