Hi my name is Aisha. I’m 27, married to an amazing man, Juan Diaz, and I am incredibly head over heels in love with Jesus. It wasn’t always that way…I mean we just met two and a half years ago!
I was born in Los Angeles and grew up in Detroit and the surrounding suburbs. I grew up with my loving mother and younger brother. My dad was always in and out of the picture and when he made the picture, he couldn’t seem to remember how old I was. My mom did a great job of making sure I always felt loved and never went without anything.
When I was 19 I was invited to a nightclub by a friend I had just met and we had the time of our lives. I had never experienced that kind of environment and I knew right then it wouldn’t be my last time. I love dancing and I’m a very social person so the entire nightclub scene became very intoxicating and I found myself at different clubs every night of the week except Mondays. I soon became friends with mostly all of the DJs and they would invite me to their VIP [area] and offered me drinks. I thought this was the life and this was my life for about two years.
I started dating this guy I met at a nightclub. I began spending most of my time with him and I was introduced to house parties and a new group of friends that liked to party in a different way. Life got crazy and before I knew it I was drinking and smoking every day and hanging around people that liked to do the same. Every day was a party until I would wake up the next day and feel horrible about myself. I couldn’t get out of bed without drinking. Without drinking, I felt numb. I became severely depressed. It was like I was living this “dream party life,” and on the outside it looked like “fun,” but on the inside everything was dark and empty.
That’s when I knew something had to change. The same friend that invited me to the club invited me to a young adults college ministry called The Gathering where God radically changed her life in an incredible way; I went after she asked several times. That night I surrendered my life to Jesus and accepted the Holy Spirit. A month later I was baptized at Oakland Church.
Did my life become perfect once I was saved? No! I struggled so much because I was in a constant battle of wanting to do what’s right and living a life for God and living in the world surrounded by drugs and alcohol. So what did I do? I begged. I pleaded. I cried out to the Lord and He started changing situations. My old friends no longer wanted to hangout because I wasn’t drinking so He brought in many new friends, women to counsel and pray for me. The Holy Spirit would give me revelation of His word and began to change my thoughts and desires. The more I began to seek God it was like the addictions I had began to fall off. So yes, I used to be an alcoholic but I no longer am. I am a new creation.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. – 2 Corinthians 5:17
Those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. – Romans 8:5
No matter what you have done, thought, said, or lived, God can and will use it for good. I have found myself in a lot of conversations that ended up with me telling my testimony and praying for someone who went through similar situations. If there is one thing I want you to understand and know it’s that God’s love for you is not earned. Your identity can only be found in Christ alone. You are made in His image; God doesn’t make mistakes. What Satan intended for bad, God will restore that brokenness, breathe new life into you, and break any addictions. You are worthy of it all. Don’t give up! I love God more than anything and He saved a life I didn’t care for. He has plans for you, plans for a bright future!
But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ— by grace you have been saved. – Ephesians 2:4-5